Wounds.

The wounds never heal at the first place, i guess.yet, you never choose me, ever.i love you is just a word, merely just a word of saying 'hello' for you.but for me it means something. How could i ever love someone who will never ever choose me for the rest of his life? Restricting my chance to love someone else.just because of him. Did he ever see? Realize? Or even bother? Or mayb he doesnt feel anything because he has someone better? I hope i know what my future will brings me. You gave her a ring, but i never get it.you make it official with her.now i realize who is special actually, eventhough u keep denying.
Maybe you think she has everything, and shes the one for you. And i hv many flaws but just remember nobody's perfect. I am who i am and eventhough im not like her, but i am perfect in my own way, perfect for someone who will appreciate me someday.Im hurting inside, dying inside. It keeps haunting me, all these feelings.
Just remember me one day, the one that will always love you. I cant have you, but atleast i can love you.
Maybe Allah has a better plan for me.One faithful day, when im gone,i hope u will still remember my name.

Love battle

The wound heals but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
You're at war with love


These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
This battle
Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wounding me
Arrow holes, they never close from cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when you're trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up
And you know that you should knowAnd let him go
But the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover strong


I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget him
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love

Sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter
On the frontline with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifleMaybe sharpen up a stone
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone


I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget him
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

You shouldn't have but you said it
(And I hope you never come back)
It shouldn't have happened but you let it
Now you're down on the ground screaming medic
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armors and vests don't properly work
That's why you're in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let him win

Let me love you

Much as you blame yourself, you can't be blamed for the way that you feelHad no example of a love that was even remotely real
How can you understand something that you never had  baby, if you let me, I can help you out with all of that

Now let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Now let me love you
And all your trouble
Don't be afraid,  let me help
 let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
 let me love youV
A heart of numbness gets brought to life
I'll take you thereNow let me love you
Now let me love you, baby, oh
Now let me love youNow let me love you, baby
Now let me love you
Let me love you, let me love you, oh

I can see the pain behind your eyes
It's been there for quite a while
I just wanna be the one to remind you what it is to smile
I would like to show you what true love can really do

 let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Now let me love you
And all your trouble
Don't be afraid,  let me help
Now let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Now let me love you
A heart of numbness, gets brought to life
I'll take you there

Now let me love you, baby
Now let me love you
Let me love you, let me love you, baby
Now let me love you
Now let me love you, baby
Now let me love you
Let me love you,  let me love you, baby
For every heart that breathe

Too close to love you.

You know I'm not one to break promises,
I don't want to hurt you but I need to breathe.
At the end of it all, you're still my best friend,
But there's something inside that I need to release.
Which way is right, which way is wrong,
How do I say that I need to move on?
You know we're heading separate ways.

And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
There's nothing I can really say.
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more,
Got to be true to myself.
And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
So I'll be on my way.

You've given me more than I can return,
Yet there's oh so much that you deserve.
There's nothing to say, nothing to do.
I've nothing to give,
I must live without you.
You know we're heading separate ways.

And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
There's nothing I can really say.
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more,
Got to be true to myself.
And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
So I'll be on my way.

So I'll be on my way.

And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
There's nothing that I can really say.
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more,
Got to be true to myself.
And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
So I'll be on my way.

Cinta

Menapak jalan yg menjauh
Tentukan arah yg ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
Yg membuat hati lara
Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita
cinta, tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa
aku junjung petuahmu
cintai dia yg mencintaiku
hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia
Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

cinta biar saja ada
yg terjadi biar saja terjadi
bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita
cerita tentang yg meninggalkan
dan yg ditinggalkan
cinta..

November.

'Hello November.please be nice to me'. People always say this when new month starts. Well mayb November always a lil bit special to me because this month is my birthday. This year, im goin to be 23 on 15nov.well yeah.i guess, old.
I dont know why, but this year i think my birthday is not going to be happy or fun.mayb.. Nothing special.. No miracle..haishhh!! YaAllah, i will keep praying and hoping for a miracle to come in my life.miracle, please.. Haha.
So yeah..counting days...blah..not even excited :P

:)

I know, I know it's been a while
I wonder where you are, and if you think of me
Sometimes, 'cause you're always on my mind
You know I had it rough, trying to forget you but
The more that I look around, the more I realize
You're all i'm looking for

What makes you so beautiful, is you don't know how beautiful you are to me
You're not trying to be perfect
Nobody's perfect, but you are, to me
It's how you take my breath away
Feel the words that I don't say
I wish somehow, I could say them now
Oh, oh, I could say them now, yeah

Just friends, the beginning or the end?How do we make sense
When we're on our own
It's like you're the other half of me
I feel incomplete, I should've known
Nothing in the world compares to the feelings that we share
So not fair

What makes you so beautiful, is you don't know how beautiful you are to me
You're not trying to be perfect
Nobody's perfect, but you are, to me
You try to take my breath away
Feel the words that I don't say
I wish somehow, I could say them now

Oh, it's not you, blame it all on me
I was running from myself
Cause I couldn't tell how deep that we
We were gonna be
I was scared it's destiny, but it hurts like hell
Hope it's not too late, just a twist of faith

What makes you so beautiful, is you don't know how beautiful you are to me
You're not trying to be perfect
Nobody's perfect, but you are, to me
It's how you take my breath away
Feel the words that I don't say
I wish somehow, I could say them now
Oh, oh, I could say them now, mmm

Carly Rae Jepsen Beautiful lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/carly-rae-jepsen-bea