The Truth

Lying next to you

Wishing I could disappear

Let you fall asleep

And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room

And we pretend that we don't see it

It's the avalanche that looms above our heads

And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect

Trying not to let you down

Honesty is honestly

The hardest thing for me right now

While the floors underneath our feet

Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling

I still stand here holding up the roof

Cause it's easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs

I remember how we used to laugh

I can keep on losing sleep

If you're okay with being torn in half

Trying to be perfect

Trying not to let you down

Honesty is honestly

The hardest thing for me right now

While the floors underneath our feet

Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling

I still stand here holding up the roof

Cause it's easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning

And let the rain come in

Stop pretending that it's not ending

And let the end begin...

boyfriend. :)

someone gave me this song, i like this song so much! Boyfriend by Big Time Rush.

well..i love this song,the lyrics..but then..d person who gave me this song asked me to understand the lyrics and the meaning.so yeah, now i know..

and my answer is; 'sorry, but i can't be your girlfriend. :)'. Im sorry, but i just can't. But you're kind,though. 

After all, i will always love this song.good song from Big Time Rush :)

my journey..this is how it begins..

So, here I am, now safely at home. So tiring,my legs are painful and my left eye got infection,bcos of the contact lense.But I really enjoyed it,shopping and at the same time hv fun at the universal studios. On the first day we arived quite early,bcos our flight is in the morning. It took only 30 minutes from KLIA to Changi airport, i didnt even managed to finish my coffee.haha. Suprisingly, bcos we expected that its gonna be 45 minutes.Before this,we went to singapore by car.So, i dont know much how long it will take if we took a flight.

1st DAY.
So, early in the morning,we arrived at Changi airport,spore,then headed to our hotel, near the Orchard Road, at Orange Grove road. We decided to stay at the hotel lobby until check in time(12 pm), but luckily, the receptionist guy was so kind he gave us our room immediately. So lucky enough. Then ape lg, i jumped on the bed and..krohh..krohh..kroh..so sleepy,tired. Sedar2, it was aready 2pm.So, i had my lunch, then in the evening we went to Singapore expo.The 'so called' expo,my uncle suggested to my mum, konon2 it has many kitchen&electronic goods.But then..actually, it was PATHETIC. with soo many people i cant even walk, we didnt buy anything. Just hanging around at SUBWAY,drinking coffee and biscuits.

After that, we headed up straight to orchard road. Thinking of shopping some stuffs on the first day here(so that we didnt waste our time), but it ended up we only managed to buy perfumes.HAHA.In spore the perfumes slightly cheaper than msia since its tax-free. So, i bought perfumes for me,mymom,mysister, and even to mydad & najwa.Mymom wanted to buy her kitchen aid but surprisingly the mall closed at 8.30pm. So early rite??Jadi xsempat la kn.haha.Then, we went back to our hotel, before that 'singgah' at Adam Road, where many halal food sold there, had our dinner and then kroh..kroh..kroh...

2nd DAY


Early in the morning,around 9.45am, we were ready to go to Universal Studios. We arrived around 10.30am but it's already full with people. So many people, crowded.i hate the situation. (Lupe plak, spore also school holiday,same with msia,patutla ramai nk mampus). So, our first check point in universal studios is at madagascar land. So many children with the hot weather,memang menaikkan kemarahan. Just imagine, we hv to queue about more than 1 hour to take a ride in madagascar land. Fed up gila, and it turned out to be a stupid boat ride with all the madagascar characters singing along our ride.STUPID. Rse diri dh mcm budak2 ok? HAHA.

Alrite, after that stupid boat ride we headed up to far far away land, the SHREK land. So, bersesuaian dgn movie SHREK, most of the rides here are suitable for children. But, we watched the SHREK 4D MOTION. and it was fun.yeah, nasib baik the motion was fun, if not, mmg sia2 beratur about 45minutes gak la.

ok, then after that we walked to the lost world, where the jurassic park thingy land. If we want to take a ride in this land,it took about 1hour and 20minutes for us to queue, so bye-bye je lah. jgn harap nk beratur smpai sejam lbeh. At that time dah extremely exhausted dh. tp sempat tgk the waterworld show in this land. then, we headed to ancient mummy land plak. ok, this land was so cool, with mummy,cleopatra, and the roller coaster ride(the mummy returns) was sssooooo FUN! haha..rse nak naik lg sekali but, xlarat nk queue la plak. Luckily queue xpjg sgt so dlm 15minutes beratur.

The last land is outer space land i think. some kind of space ship land, humans,robots fighting.the robot is cylon. yeah, i took a roller coaster extreme ride..waaa best gle! my sister xberani nk naik so i naik sorng2.wah3 sgt extremely exciting!! kepala kt bwh kaki kt atas n mcm2 lg.haha. after that we just walked along the hollywood street, where the roll camera action show, with steven speilberg special effect. Then to main street USA, where all shops selling souviners..and its nearly 8pm, dh xlarat sgt2,kaki nearly nk tercabut..sakit nk mampus..so ktorng pn balik. Before balik hotel, singgah at newton street dinner. So basically, on the 2nd day, the whole day we spent at the UNIVERSAL STUDIOS. no shopping. :(

3rd DAY


Ok, on this day we spent the whole day only for shopping.hehe. from our hotel,we went to orchard road..starting from Robinsons mall, we strolled along the orchard road, bought some clothes at Cotton On, then to Zara, after that Topshop and Guess. Then, we had our lunch at the halal ayam penyet restaurant.I was so tired at that time, with lots of paper n plastic bags that i hv to carry. Our last stop  is at Tangs,where mymom bought her kitchen aid, and some other kitchen stuffs. Sempat lagi i bought a set of BENEFIT makeup, 'finding mr.bright'. hehe.just for collections. :). Chuna mesti marah if dpt tau ni.hihi. Then, dh xlarat sgt after that, so we went back to our hotel.yelah dr pagi smpai mlm asyik shopping.so continue shopping esk je la. Before that we had our dinner at Adam Street again.dh xde choice sgt kn.nk wat cmne,hehe.

4th day a.k.a last day.

this is our last day in here.wakeup in the morning, breakfast then checked out. we placed our luggage in the hotel first, and  after that..continue shopping.hehe. :D. Mymom bought her handbag...sooo long i hv to wait..from gucci to salvatore ferragamo then burberry. Since i was so boring waiting, i decided to buy sandal for myself at Clarks. Sbb dh sakit kaki time tu pkai heels. After that br la mymom abes beli  handbag.time tu dh pkul 2pm.ktorng kne pg airport ptg at 5pm cos our flight is at 8pm. So, ktorng xde masa nk shopping byk2 lg,just beli few things and then tros headed to airport.
Kt airport my feet dh luka n merah2 so hv to buy slipper.nasib baik dpn mata ade charles&keith so ape lg tros beli.sempat lg tertdo smentara tggu flight.then after 30minutes, dh smpai KLIA. At that time its already 11pm(after dh amek luggage sume).so ktrong mkn kt airport je then tros balik umah.time tu dh pkul 12 lbeh.

So,smpai2 je umah, HOME SWEET HOME! i was so tired,exhausted, mengantok..tros tdo..kroh..kroh..kroh..what a tiring day.....





All i can say that, it was fun but i cant deny the fact that it was so tiring. The universal studios is similar with disneyland hongkong that i went last time.x byk beza sgt pn.lebih kurang..But i really hv a great time with my family..and i feel so happy.Atleast my time filled with good things and i dont feel so bored. :).

So to CHUNA, this is my 4 days journey to singapore...i dedicated this post to u.muah muah. :)

some space for myself and family..

tomorrow morning, i'll go somewhere with my mom and my sister. Three of us,without my dad & my younger sister. They can't make it. So, goodbye Shah Alam.Goodbye Malaysia. I will not be here for few days. Goodbye sadness, goodbye pain. I hope i can have a great time with my family and spend quality time with them..and forget my sadness, loneliness and pain. Really need to go somewhere to release my mind and I hope tomorrow i can enjoy & entertain myself. I will not update my blog for a few days but InsyaAllah after i return back, I'll update. :). Pray for my safe journey.

Hope everything will be fine, just like I expected.

:)

"The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere"

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here :')

"I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly..

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

'I don't feel so alone...'

As many times as I blink,

I'll think of you tonight... :')

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here..

i dont know what i feel right now..

sigh.i dont know what i feel right now.im happy, but at d same time im scared and sad. I hv no idea what is happening to me. It's just..im afraid i will get hurt again. Before this,from time to time i try to heal myself,alone,and all of sudden this time i feel so weak. These few days i forgot that once,few months ago, i was so hopeless, heartbroken person, and strong enough to fight sadness and pain.I regain back my strength all by myself. But this time? I dont know..am i too stupid? Or have i forgotten all the sadness n pain that i've been thru before this?And just let it be and act like nothing happened? Or am i so dumb, let myself playing with fire,since i've already know the truth? I hv no answers for all that. All i know is, im so happy now, and sad..sometimes when i wanna laugh, i feel i wanna cry too. both. And i really need to go somewhere to release my mind..to get away from all this thing..and i hope when i come back, i will find myself back.the real me.i hope i can face the truth.Bcos the truth is, im afraid to face tomorrow, the day after tomorrow,and so on..i dont know who i am anymore. "How could this happened to me, i got nowhere to run, im sick of this life.."

Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides

Alhamdulillah,today dpt gak tgk movie yg mmg aku nk tgk dr dlu ni! mmg ske gle la tgk cte pirates of caribbean ni,dr series yg 1st lg aku dh ikut. Review? emm rsenye on stranger tides ni kurang best sket la berbanding previous series..yela,sbb dh xde orlando bloom & kiera knightley. But hero ku johnny depp still ade,tu yg jd best tu.hehe. Johnny depp still dgn character die as Captain Jack Sparrow yg mmg lawak, so overall ok la movie ni.Alkisah today aku tgk movie dh x pathetic pegi sorng2 mcm aku slalu wat,hehe. Kali ni berteman. :). Sapekah gerangannye? Biarlah rahsia.cewahhhh.best gak maen rahsia2 ni.Rasa mcm artis plak. Hehe mmg best sgt today, and aku tersgtlah happy. :). Thanks(kepada yg berkenaan).

If nk tau more bout this movie, gi la tgk kt wayang skrg.got 3D somemore.hee :D

grrrrrrr~

almost every morning,i emphasized, MORNING, i will receive text msgs.Arghh..mengganggu keseronokanku tgh beradu and berguling2 atas katil..Dhla msg dtg bertubi-tubi, selang beberapa mnit je next msg plak msuk.I thought from secret admire ke ape,syok la sket..but then..ble tgk2 je..rupe2nye..

CELCOMOFFER:dapatkn caller ringtone yada yada yada yada~

TAHNIAH! anda tlh reload 2x.reload 3x harini utk yada yada yada~

Menangi fon bla bla bla bla...zzz......

CEH!!! zzzz.. ni mmg menaikkan kemarahan..dhla msg pagi2 buta time org tgh dok best2 mmpi, dh tu plak lpas 1,1 msg msuk.lpas offer caller ringtone,offer hadiah lain plak.Weh ko gile ke ape sruh reload 3kali dlm sehari? aku nk call n msg spe je?bengong. Smpai 1 tahap tu, rse nk reply je & ckp cmni, "wey can u plis STFU?? stop sending me msgs..aku xberminat,aku xnak la phm x??. Jgn kacau org nk tdo la!". Ni la consequence nye ble pkai no celcom.Jap, maxis pn cmni gak ke? stiap pagi wajib bg msg..if xckup 3 keping xsah..

So, ni la 'defects' nye ble dpt msg2 mcm ni..firstly,msg ni wajib dihantar pagi2 buta& sekaligus mngganggu konsentrasi org nk tdo..Secondly, msg2 cmni sgt hebat dlm memberi harapan palsu kt org..sbb kte igtkn msg dr kekasih or secret admire teringat kt kte pagi2 buta.haha. Thirdly, msg mcm ni bleh menaikkan kemarahan time tgh ngantok & rse2 mcm nk baling je fon kt dinding. Lastly, msg2 cmni leh menambahkn dosa2 penerima sbb ble dpt msg cmni kte msti rse nk maki je.tol x? haha. ayat2 cmni msti kua, "bangang la celcom offer ni!".

LMFAO.

ok la, puas hati dpt tulis sbb pagi td tdo terganggu akibat 3msg bengong ni.haha.so, nk smbung tdo blk smbil letak cucumber kt mata..zzzzzz...zzzz...

bintang kehidupan

lately aku ske tgk bintang time mlm2..esp if xujan la kn..if ujan or br lpas ujan bintang xnmpk..gelap je..tp mostly dpt la tgk bintang ni lama2..rse best plak.teringat time skolah2 dlu, aku ske tgk bintang & figure out bntuk buruj.(yelah,dlu kt skola blaja sains, ade blaja psl buruj2 ni).so kte aplikasikan la,ceh kua ayat law plak nk apply2.haha.so kdg2 tu dpt la gak tgk bntuk buruj yg paling common,buruj pari.ala yg bntuk ala2 cross tu.(tu je la bntuk paling snang aku nk tgk n figure out).haha best sgt.mcm dpt solve problem la time tu.bangga kot.tp smpai skrg xdpt nk tgk bntuk buruj scorpio(aku pnye astrological sign),ape ntah dlm malay,aku xigt.xkn la nama buruj kala jengking plak,xpnah dgar pn.LOL. One day, harap2 dtg la keajaiban kn,tbe2 dpt tgk.Tgk bntuk2 awan pn best gak, kdg2 pndai2 figure out sndiri bntuk kuda la,burung la,mcm2.haha.

cte psl bintang ni, tbe2 teringat plak lagu lama, bintang kehidupan.best.hahaha.

walaupun lagu ni dah lama, tapi lagu ni still best. dpt menenangkan otak dan mengurangkan tekanan.hee :D :D :D
btw, mcm terkena kt diri sndiri plak lagu ni.what a coincidence.

Cry-Rihanna (bring back memories)

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing


My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart



How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show

You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

my life as a daughter.

today temankan mama lunch..since dh ddk umah & xwat ape2, so unofficially im a driver for mama. Yelah, kaki die pn sakit2 lately, xsmpai hati la plak kn. So, if die nk pegi mana2 so aku la yg jd tukang bwk n drive kereta.xlarat nk drive die ckp. Xpela kn,since aku pn ddk umah bkn wat ape2.haha. As usual, mama akan jd JPJ ble naik kereta dgn aku, ade je die nk complain..n siap jd parking attendance utk aku(haha,as if aku ni bdk2 br nk blaja drive). And yg klakanye, mmg kebiasaan aku akan pasang radio kuat2 dlm kereta.Yelah, most of the time aku drive sorng2 je, tu yg pasang kuat2,takot ngantok & tertido plak smbil drive LOL. Lgpn xde spe nk marah kn.So, as usual aku pn pasang la radio kn. Menjerit la mama ble radio tu kuat sgt..hahaha..die ckp,'leh kena darah tnggi mama if cmni,skt kpala ni'. Mama,mama..haha.we r different, but i love her so much. Yela, org tua & org muda pnye taste mana la nk sama kn, but she's really sporting. Walaupun kdg2 die kawal aku mcm la aku anak perempuan die yg umur 10 thn lg.mayb mama still igt aku bdk kecik sdangkn aku dh dewasa.Kdg2 aku terpikir, ape prasaan mama if aku dh kahwin? hmm..xterpikir plak smpai ke situ kn..since aku still rse aku ni young&dangerous.haha.tp lately die always mentioned bout kawin n tbe2 aku rse seram sejuk.scaryy..dh tua sgt ke aku ni? LOL.

ape2 pn,she's still mymom and mama,i love u till the end of my life.. :')

today is 25th May 2011 :)

today is 25th May 2011.Wednesday. yeah, why am i so concerned? Today is a special day for me.An important date & day for me. Its been 1 year since 25th May 2010. All this while, I've been waiting for this day.I should be happy today, but now it means nothing anymore. Now, it is just a date. Just a day.Plain. Nothing special.But memories always alive. Oh 25th May, i'll keep & remember this date always. :)

today i dont feel like doing anything.sigh*

NO STRING ATTACHED.

well,ni bkn nk crite or review bout this movie,  yg natalie portman & ashton kutcher berlakon tu.haha. well, yeah.it was a romantic story and i've watched it. ok back to the topic. I think situation like this always happened in real life, rite? someone yg kte syg, love soo much n kte rasa ada hati&prasaan kt die, but then x nak ade ape2 bond or commitment with us. Y is it so? well my friend said sbb die tamak.Xnak lose us but at d same time nk keep diri available for others. But, the question is, is it fair? Adil ke? Mcm bg harapan, act like loving couple,treat us as if we are special, but with no bond at all. Honestly, for me i dont like this kind of situation. But i cant say too much, bcos i've experienced it. How does it feels? Sakit? Sedih? BOTH. Mayb whoever yg wat mcm ni ade good n strong reason behind it, but remember one thing. Akan smpai 1 tahap when you dh rasa syg n cinta then all this nonsense will stop. Its just a matter of time. Whatever it is, it depends on individuals. Maybe ade yg njoy n happy rship with "no string attached". But like i said before, in rship, commitment is important.Wallahualam.

"Love act in mysterious way".

p/s : sory bahasa rojak2 sket :D

truth hurts?

truth hurts,rite? But most of us will seek for the truth.And so do i. But i cant change the fact that sometimes i prefer to live in lies bcos truth really hurts. Hypocrite? NO, its just sometimes small lies can ease my feelings. Call me dumb and fool, yes i admit, but sometimes eventhough i try to run away from truth and believe in lies, i will find myself seeking and revealing the truth all by myself, slowly. And eventually i will cry because i already know the truth.HURTS.PAINFUL.IT HURTS LIKE HELL.
as i grew older, i hold this principle, "the truth may hurt for a little while, but a lie hurts forever". So, its better for me to know the truth rather than torturing myself  living in lies.


Just tell someone the truth and be honest. Honesty is the best policy.

one fine night for me..

last nite i just walking around my housing area,and stopped by at one of the playgrounds.It reminds me of someone. The swing..yes.I used to play the swing with someone, several times..usually in the evening..we talked bout our future,laughed and laughed.I really miss the routine. I love those precious moments. But it was a long time ago. And i know i can never turn back times.Still, it will be one of the most beautiful memories in my life.
So,there I was, sitting alone on the swing, and yes, I feel relieved.I closed my eyes,and I smiled for no reason, thinking how sweet n lucky I am.At least I got a chance to remember and appreciate those beautiful moments in my life, even though its gone forever. I realized, we can't have everything in life, so although I cant get him, at least I got all of our memories with me. :)

"Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, that's why you need to close your eyes and feel it with your heart".


“When all is said and done, you are part of me. That's the way it was meant to be. People are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason. I believe the reason that you and me were brought together was because we complete one another. We fill in each other's missing spots with love. And if someday God decides to tear us apart, I trust that there is a reason. Cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it.”

Bye Bye

recently, i love listening to this song..Bye Bye by Mariah Carey.an old song but means a lot.it really touches me..so just enjoy :).

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face


I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye


Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye..

goodbye to all people which had gone in my life forever.person which i used to love,person which i still love, one word; GOODBYE AND I WISH FOR YOUR HAPPINESS. :)

Nabilah Husna

sape minah ni? artis ke? diva? or doctor, lawyer, majistret? (ala2 kassim selamat). LOL. Haha.she's none of those. All i can say is, she's my best friend, my best buddy, my sister. always with me.always beside me, and we've gone through all sadness and happiness together. She had seen me when im in my worst and my best. Chuna(panggilan ala2 manja utk die haha), i hope u will be my bestfriend forever, and may Allah bless our friendship. Thanks for everything and thanks for all your supports. She's my bestgirlfriend, always dating & pegi mana2 dgn die je la..tp x boring pn kn :D.

Me and chuna

we r besties..

 during mooting..we are the respondent

she is the one :)

thank you so much for all the memories nabilah husna! friends forever. :)

to kill a mockingbird.

well i love reading this book.it is a classic novel of a lawyer in the deep south defending a black man charged with the rape of a white girl.someone bought it for me and i just love it. One of the best-loved stories of all time by Harper Lee.
As you can see, this book is all about discrimination of white people towards black people. plus, inequality.This book also involves racial injustice and the destruction of innocence.The novel is renowned for its warmth and humor, despite dealing with the serious issues of rape and racial inequality. Atticus Finch (main character in this book)has served as a moral hero for many readers and as a model of integrity for lawyers . All i can say is, we should know that we must have equality before the law(Article 8 of Federal Constitution).This kind of issues and situations shoudnt happened nowadays. But still, as i can see, racism is everywhere,happened in many ways and forms.
Just grab this book and read it if u want to know how interesting it is! hehe :)

p/s: my favorite quote in this book: 'Lawyers, I suppose, were children once'. -Charles Lamb-

the true meaning of forgiveness..?

I love the theme song of Temptation of a Wife,korean series.The title is 'I Can't Forgive'.One of the lyrics captured my attention, when it said, 'Do not call me a bad woman, I can't forgive'.Does it makes you a bad woman if u cant forgive? It is kind of a sad story, a woman who often been tortured and cheated by her husband and he even try to kill her. And she seeks for revenge. Now i get it.When u cant forgive someone, you tend to seek for revenge.And it can turn you to a bad woman or person.For me, forgiving is the best theraphy.Often my friends n people i know said to me, 'u r kind'. And i was thinking, what is the true meaning of kindness? Am i too kind? No, im not that kind.'Setiap manusia ade kelemahan dan kekurangan.' But what is more important, forgive more. U can let go all the hurts and pains if u forgive people. Sedangkan Nabi pn ampunkan umat.Inikan plak kita sesama hamba Allah. What can i say is, i forgive people, though i dont FORGET. Forgetting is long. But forgive is good. When we forgive someone, dont seek for repayment. 'Yg lain2 tu biar Allah je yg balas n tentukan'.
:)

"Forgiving isn't forgetting. Its just letting go of the hurt".

bring back the social psychology :)

Since i've got nothing to do lately( just staying at home doing nothing, bcos of the longgggg semester break). I was suddenly thinking bout one of my killer subject, back when i was doing my foundation in Kedah.Social Psychology. Most of my friends hate this subject. But its kinda interesting though. And one chapter attract my attention; Interpersonal Attraction and Close Relationships. And it mostly about LOVE. Love is an emotional reaction that seems as basic as anger, sadness, happiness, and fear. Now, let me apply this in our basic situations.
"What is love?". Most people I know offered answer like this; "Love is offering the last bite". "Love is when you look at your partner when they first wake up and still think they are beautiful". "Love is like an elevator, you can ride it to the top or end up in the basement, but eventually you'll choose which floor to get off".Whatever you think what love is all about, we come back to one thing; love is a most wonderful part in our life. Who doesnt want to live without love? So, if you have someone who loved u or u love, appreciate them.
Many people fall in love, but no one ever seems to have fallen in friendship.I think its good if we can be a good lover as well as friend to our bf/gf. Passionate love can be said as, "falling head over heels in love". A person in love is preoccupied with the loved one and can think about little else.(wait, i think this type of love is not for me). For example, one couple,they love each other, tolerate, and  have a healthy relationship.In contrast, unrequited love is love felt by one person for another who does not feel love in return.(yes, i think this suits me well). haha.As we can see, this common situation often happened, when you love someone too much but he/she doesnt love u dat much and never appreciate u.well, there's a lot types of love, as we can see, but one thing for sure, and the most vital part is, love is one of the most powerful feelings of which we are capable and it involves caring and commitment too.

Enough with this social psychology thingy.i think i had said enough.After all, this will always become one of my favorite subject. :)

my sayangness..

my cats, kitty, fiffy.and snowbell. very2 naughty, manja, and sgt2 syg kn diorng.my buah hati pengarang jantung!


kitty

 

my family n frens ckp die garang..tp she's cute! hehe

ni my fiffy yg fluffy n montel..ske tdo with me every nite.

he's so fatt

ni my baby manja snowbell..manja sgt :D

p/s: i also have lobsters n fishes in my pond! someday i want a sugar glider or a rabbit! :D

my life.my everything.my precious

all of these persons are very important in my life and i love them so much..

mama and abah

mama,abah with my younger sister najwa at melbourne

my family

my family again.

me.:)

 me n my grandmother err..plus my uncle sibuk tnjuk peace kt blakang LOL

my sister tasha

i love you guys..i have nobody except my family..may Allah bless all of us..

all about myself...

hye..dis is my first time blogging..i never had a blog before..so yeah.here i am.and first things first, who am i? Im Nadrah Mohd Razib, my friends call me 'nad'. Staying in Bukit Jelutong Shah Alam. I was born in Kuala Lumpur on 15th November 1989.old enough huh? That's why mymom never stop talking bout me getting married.ha-ha.Currently taking Degree in Law in UiTM Shah Alam.As you can see, i can say that im not that intelligent person.>.<. Im staying alone in Shah Alam since my dad works in Bangkok.Mymom followed him. Pathetic,right?hehe. Im such a loner, boring girl.I do things alone most of the times.Shopping,lunch,dinner,and even watching movies. Im contented, cause i still have my friends around me(though they cannot be with me all the time). Love? Lets not talk about it with me. I can be a good advisor for love, but for myself,im such a failure. I love travelling all around the world,and i love my cats soo much.I hope someday i can have rabbits and sugar glider. which one is more preferable?hehe.I love PURPLE. Love photography.I love reading. Im just a plain and simple girl. I believe in faith. I believe things happened for a reason. What else can I say? Life is about choosing.And this is all the choices i've made:

• Success in my study, career and life.
• Make my parents happy and proud.
• Spend more quality times with my friends
• Love and marriage? err..let my parents handle it for me.>.<

believe me, im a pathetic girl.not beautiful n hot like you guys. :D

one day im gonna be a good lawyer.amin.

i love photography

with abah n my wan