Each of us has something within us which won't be denied, even if it makes us scream aloud to die. We are what we are, that's all. Like the old Celtic legend of the bird with the thorn in its breast, singing its heart out and dying. Because it has to, its self-knowledge can't affect or change the outcome, can it? Everyone singing his own little song, convinced it's the most wonderful song the world has ever heard. Don't you see? We create our own thorns, and never stop to count the cost. All we can do is suffer the pain, and tell ourselves it was well worth it.

And gradually that memory slipped a little, as memories do, even those with so much love attached to them; as if there is an unconscious healing process within the mind which mends up in spite of our desperate determination never to forget.

I've asked about you and they've told me things
but my mind didn't change.I still the feel the same.
what's a life with no fun, please don't be so ashamed,
I've had mine, you've had yours we both know, we know.
They don't get you like I will,my only wish is I die real.
cause that truth hurts, and those lies heal.
and you can't sleep thinking that he lies still
so you cry still, tears all in the pillow case,
big girls all get a little taste
pushing me away so I give him space
dealing with a heart that I didn't break.
I'll be there for you, I will care for you
I keep thinking you, just don't know
try to run from that, say you're done with that
on your face boy,, it just don't show.
When you're ready, just say you're ready
when all the baggage just ain't as heavyl
and the parties over, just don't forget me
we'll change the pace and we'll just go slow.
You won't ever have to worry,
you won't ever have to hide,
you've seen all my mistakes,
so look me in my eyes.can't deny that I want you, but I'll lie if have to.
cause you don't say you love me
to your friends when they ask you.
One time, been in love one time,
all so convinced that you're following your heart
cause your mind don't control what it does sometimes.
We all have our nights though, don't be so ashamed
I've had mine, you've had yours, we both know, we know.
You hate being alone
you ain't the only one
you hate the fact that you bought the dream
and they sold you one
you love your friends but somebody shoulda told you something,
to save you.

Ive loved and ive lost. 

Detik waktu terus berjalan
Berhias gelap dan terang
Suka dan duka
Tangis dan tawa
Tergores bagai lukisan
Seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
Hadir bagai teman sejati
Di antara lelahnya jiwa
Dalam resah dan air mata
Ku persembahkan kepadaMu
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
Kadang tak setia kepadaMu
Namun cinta dalam jiwa
Hanyalah padaMu
Maafkanlah bila hati
Tak sempurna mencintaiMu
Dalam dada ku harap hanya
Dirimu yang bertakhta
Detik waktu terus berlalu
Semua berakhir padaMu

Inikah caramu membalas cintaku.
Kau nodai cinta yang ku beri
Inikah caramu membalas sayangku
Kau lukai sayangku untukmu
Sanggupnya kau menari diatas tangisanku
Kau permainkan ku sesuka hatimu
Sudah cukup cukup sudah
Cukup sampai disini saja
Daripada hati gelisah
Cintaku kau balas dengan dusta
Sudah cukup cukup sudah
Cukup sampai disini saja
Daripada batin terseksa
Lebih baik ku pergi saja
T’lah berulangkali ku coba mengalah
Ternyata sabarku tak bererti untukmu
Sanggupnya kau menari diatas tangisanku
Kau permainkan ku sesuka hatimu
Sudah cukup cukup sudah
Cukup sampai disini saja
Daripada hati gelisah
Cintaku kau balas dengan dusta
Sudah cukup cukup sudah
Cukup sampai disini saja
Daripada batin terseksa
Lebih baik ku pergi saja

Di angin lalu kusampaikan kerinduan
Wajahmu ku terbayang
Bersama janjimu ku bawa dlm mimpi, ku bawa dlm mimpi.

Malam sunyi, rasa sepi,
Ku duduk seorang diri
Terbayang wajahmu di awangan
Hidupku di sini penuh dgn cubaan
Namun kau tetap jadi pujaan

Walau ku cuba untk melupakan kau
Namun ku tak terdaya
Kini ku selalu terkenangkan dirimu

Alangkah hancur hatiku
Terdengar dan terlihat kau punya teman baru
Kiranya kau telah berubah
Janjimu hanya tinggal kenangan

Hatiku menangis dengan seribu pertanyaan
Mengapa oh mengapa
Dari jauh ku lihat kau berlalu pergi
Berbahagialah di sampingnya

Wont give up.

How old is your soul..? I wont give up.
I had to learn what i've got
And what im not
And who i am





...but now im giving up on you.

The Truth

Lying next to you

Wishing I could disappear

Let you fall asleep

And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room

And we pretend that we don't see it

It's the avalanche that looms above our heads

And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect

Trying not to let you down

Honesty is honestly

The hardest thing for me right now

While the floors underneath our feet

Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling

I still stand here holding up the roof

Cause it's easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs

I remember how we used to laugh

I can keep on losing sleep

If you're okay with being torn in half

Trying to be perfect

Trying not to let you down

Honesty is honestly

The hardest thing for me right now

While the floors underneath our feet

Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling

I still stand here holding up the roof

Cause it's easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning

And let the rain come in

Stop pretending that it's not ending

And let the end begin...